Month: July 2016

Angry.

I need to stop being angry with this job, at the worst, most unprofessional company I’ve ever worked for, so that I can attend to my own business and career interests.

I don’t know what to do. I want to drop tools and walk out. I am sick of the pettiness and the bullying from people in senior positions who are happy to sit and watch while the business fails. I’m sick of deliberate attempts to undermine my confidence. I’m sick of the malicious gossip. Fuck you. Nobody here has achieved anything. You’re petty and jealous and it’s fucking difficult working with these daily levels of aggression.

If I walk out, it doesn’t damage my finances, they’re not paying me enough for that, but it’s not great for my CV. Also I think I should be talking to a lawyer and that means talking to HR again, yada yada. I don’t have time for this shit. I need to go to South Africa to make some proper money and deal with people who are concentrating on business, like grown-ups.

I’m ready to go. The question is how I can put an end to this stupidity with minimal damage to my career.

 

That was an interesting week.

Hooray for being back in the UK.

I spent 4 days working with – in fact, providing work and opportunities for – the person who I love and they were an absolute bitch to me for three of those days for no reason. So that’s the end of that. I’m not here to take abuse, am I. Sorry you’ve got whatever problems are causing you to behave like that. Please stay well away from me in future.

I am on the point of firing my accountant. I have cash flow problems and I have tax bills coming out the wazoo and I have accounts that haven’t been filed and we are not making fast progress filing those accounts, with the result that I’m now paying for business expenses out of my personal account. I might have to raise a loan or even a credit card to go to S Africa, which is shockingly soon.

This happened at work. I sent an email today to the CEO describing a conversation I had yesterday with a senior person who I’m expected to work with.

I had a meeting yesterday with a senior colleague. We successfully talked about work for about 20 minutes, then this happened for 30 minutes. Not the first time this individual has pulled this routine but the last time I am going to listen to it. It goes like this:

Step 1: Viciously back-stab everyone else in the organisation. Gleefully share spiteful nicknames that ‘we’ call ‘them’ (I don’t know who is implied by ‘we’, I want nothing to do with this individual or their behaviour).

Step 2: Feign concern for my welfare by telling me cautionary tales of people who were viciously back-stabbed by all of ‘them’ and forced out of their jobs.

Step 3: I’m not taking the bait, so ramp up the tension. Emphasise that everyone who I’m going to work with in the coming season, apart from the speaker of course, is a treacherous snake whose sole purpose is to stab me in the back and ruin my career. Keep emphasising ‘I am just warning you’ and ‘be careful’.

I have now filled my lifetime quota for listening to this nonsense. If that person addresses me in that way ever again, we will go straight to Human Resources and they can issue all these threats regarding my job and this transparent attempt to manipulate me using fear in front of a HR representative.

This is a senior person in our organisation who I’m talking about, not junior staff. What a trainwreck.

Fuck this week. It’s been horrible.

 

Philadelphia: Rittenhouse Square

Philadelphia is a beautiful city that has a LOT of art as well as some very impressive architecture. Everything is bursting at the seams with politics and history. I am at the airport right now so I will post some general photos of the city and we’ll do specific art posts later because I have a lot to say. So, without further ado, some views of the city, insofar as I managed to see some small corners of it. Here’s the Rittenhouse Square area.

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People registering to vote. Hopefully not for Donald Trump.

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Even the graffiti is nice.

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I recommend the Parc restaurant overlooking the square. That’s a warm shrimp and avocado salad. Good for diet.

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Creme Brulee. Less good for diet but still delicious.

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Right, I must go and get on a plane. More later.

 

Out.

I have now been Out every single day for 12 days, and that’s coming from someone who likes staying in by themselves and playing video games.

I would love to stay in my hotel room today. I could sleep and read books and relax. I am reading Felicia Day’s autobiography, which is about staying indoors by yourself and playing video games. But it would be morally wrong to do that when I’m not in Philadelphia for much longer so I am going to force myself to go out now and visit at least 2 museums or areas of local interest. I shall report back later with news.

Travels in America: Experiences and Tips

  • Philadelphia is beautiful, there will be worthwhile photos at the weekend when I get to see some art and historic monuments and suchlike.
  • I was taken for lunch at Chik-Fil-A today, so I am having a thoroughly authentic American experience. It is the worst possible thing for my diet so that’s why I’m not eating anything else until tomorrow. For non-Americans, Chik-Fil-A is like McDonalds except they only serve chicken, also a milkshake that has EIGHT HUNDRED CALORIES. In ONE milkshake. I did not have one. The owner is a (very rich) religious lunatic who won’t open his restaurants on Sundays, so that explains why Jim-Bob and Michelle Duggar eat there, which makes me feel like I’ve just personally given money to Donald Trump. Chik-Fil-A is pronounced Chik Filet, not Chick-Filler or Chick-Feeler.

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  • The coffee around Philadelphia is amazing and they make it a whole lot of different ways. I wish London had this much of a coffee culture.
  • The weather is insanely hot and I am unexpectedly getting a tan.
  • Here’s my Top Tip for lady travellers! When you have been on the road for several days and are starting to get a bit sexually frustrated, an electric toothbrush makes a very serviceable vibrator. I am using an Oral B Pulsar. Very good results. Maybe wash the toothpaste off first. And wash it again before you brush your teeth. You are welcome.